I'm just going to come out and admit this. I don't enjoy competition. Or maybe, just not one I know I can't win. Until I'm sure that's not a possibility, I'll fight for it tooth and nail, but the minute I know I'm out of the running, my heart just isn't in it anymore.
Over time, I've found the only real competitor I'm willing to gut it out against is myself. This explains my aversion to CrossFit competitions. Very rarely, I make exceptions. This was one of those cases.